I love telling Diary what’s new :)
It’s all gonna be okay! Good even
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11/26/2024 12:57 PM
Putting a pin in my dreams once again to appease someone elses desires. It’s frustrating. Like kind of excruciatingly so, but I know I’ve still got a lot to be happy about. I have plans for the future and plans to assert myself.
11/25/2024 10:07 AM
Whenever I have a lot on my plate, I usually end up procrastinating by focusing on some unrelated silly tasks. Lately that’s been soap operas and doodles of fashionable legumes. I’m going to stay focused today though!
11/21/2024 10:38 AM
I feel recalibrated today. Took some time to assess and organize my goals. New post up on my blog.
11/19/2024 4:24 PM
Diary I know I’ve been kinda fussy lately, but I think things are starting to look up. All it really took was one amazing thing to get me out of my slump.
There’s still so much to be done, and issues that need to be addressed. However, I can’t help but just be joyful for everything right in my silly little life. More updates soon <3
11/18/2024 9:58 AM
“You always look like you’re having fun” was what one of the judges at the Chez said to me last night. It was sweet. Glad I at least looked like I was having fun, but honestly last night felt like I was selling out and it didn’t even pay off.
I don’t care about lip syncing. I resent that it’s become the standard for drag shows. I needed a video of me doing one. I had a plan to make it more interesting. Didn’t rehearse it or talk through it enough. The tech didn’t work, my instructions weren’t clear enough, and I was very frustrated. As soon as I was done on stage, I left because I was mad and no longer in the mood to hang out.
I still did have fun last night, just not with that whatever basic performance. I loved talking to the girlies at the bar and backstage. I always love doing my makeup and taking pretty pictures. Handing out my new business cards that will maybe give this website consistent double-digit traffic. I debated leaving before the finalists were announced, and I’m glad I did. Staying in situations just for appearances or to appease other people sucks. So over that. I’m allowed to put me, Flaminia, first.
11/15/2024 10:24 AM
Diary, do you ever feel like you can’t say no to someone?
Someone that asks for a lot, but somehow every single thing is critical. Diary, I care about this person a lot, but eventually I need to put my own needs and wants first. This past year I’ve been trying to learn how to be less of a pushover. The more hours I spend working on unrequited last-minute favors for this friend the more it becomes obvious there’s a pattern. I already said yes again. It was a loaded ask, but I still technically could have said no. Next time I will say no. I need to prioritize me, Flaminia. My personal goals are important and it’s not fair to put them on the backburner. I do not exist to be used.
11/12/2024 12:07 PM
Hi Diary. It’s me, Flaminia. Last update was kind of a bummer, but in the past few days I’ve seen we have a lot to be hopeful about too. We have a community that’s vibrant and resilient. We got through one of his terms, we can survive another. I want to stay optimistic. I want to believe it’s possible to have a future where politicians don’t use us as scapegoats and moral panics.
I was planning on writing a more in-depth blog post on this topic. I still might, but I’ve got a couple projects that I gotta take care of first. There’s always something, and something else… but at least I can make time to update you, Diary <3
11/11/2024 10:10 AM
The 2016 election was the first one that I was old enough to vote in. Trump winning was shocking and terrifying, but at least there was solace seeing that he had lost the popular vote by about 3 million people. This time around I’m not really shocked, but it feels worse.
He has consistently campaigned on fear, hate, and misinformation. What’s worse than his victory is the reality that there are tens of millions of Americans that support him, or didn’t care enough to oppose him.
11/06/2024 8:12 AM
Diary I’ve been sick these past few days. It really all just feels like a blur. I went to bed on Friday and just stayed there. Luckily I have a silly little cat to keep me company. Back to the real world tomorrow.
11/04/2024 7:08 PM